Day 97 - Updates

Unfortunately, it doesn't seem like anything is going to pan out from the interviews Mark had last week. It's definitely disheartening, but you become numb to it and disappointment almost becomes expected. Nothing ever came from the possible job lead for me either, which is fine. We are on week 18 of Mark being unemployed, which equates to 125 days and a little over 4 months. It doesn't seem like a lot in numbers, but it feels painfully long in my heart. We really need Mark to get a job so that we can land back on our feet a bit. But, I have to say that by God's grace we are surviving and he has provided for all of our needs (and a little extra).

The hard times we have fallen upon over the last few years has completely grown my faith an infinite amount, which in turn has really changed the way things are in our home. Had this been a few years prior I would be riddled with fear and worry right now and Mark and I would be fighting constantly from it. There is a real peace in our lives, maybe it's because we have seen how God keeps saving us when we think there is nothing left or no hope. There is less, "poor me" and more "lucky us" now. We are not obsessing about the what-ifs and since we understand that nothing is promised, we do not expect a smooth ride. We are still optimistic that things will get better someday and we live each day with as much joy as we can. We are happy.

Faith is not just an action, it is a belief, a feeling in your heart, an understanding, a fighting spirit, it's knowledge and it's peace. Drawing closer to your faith in your time of need provides more comfort and love than you can find anywhere else. It doesn't let you down and it doesn't abandon you, as long as you don't abandon it.

I hope that whatever you are struggling with right now, you can immerse yourself in some sort of faith. That you can let words of wisdom and strength ebb and flow through you so that you can also feel some comfort and peace in your life. There is so much negativity around you that you need something to lift you up and give you hope. If you have questions or need help, email me at elhajs@aol.com so that I can be there for you.