Day 29 - Rest

My days have been busy. Everything feels like a struggle right now. I honestly do not have enough hours in the day to get everything done. I stay up until 1am, sometimes 3am trying to work, take care of family business, write my blogs, start a new business and spend some time with God. Did I also tell you I have 3 kids? Luckily this week I scheduled two play dates, so I was able to chat with friends. I'm right near that point when you know that a crying breakdown will probably happen, but you still have too much to do to heed the warning. I am exhausted. I feel like I spend every minute of every day doing something for someone. The hardest part is that so many of the things I need to do are still undone and I feel like I am failing. All these to-do's brings so much pressure. Pressure to start the new business, pressure to finish projects for my existing clients, to find health insurance, to pay bills, pressure to do simple things like laundry and keep the house clean. I still haven't sent out thank you notes for Christmas. I am overwhelmed just thinking about all of it.

I looked up some old sermon notes about being tired; here was something I wrote down:

Trust when you are tired.

"I have given up all hope and feel numb all over." Psalms 143:4

"Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

It's a fine line that we walk when it comes to being busy and survival. There will always be those times when you have to get a second job or you have to put in more hours so that you can survive. That's why I understand that I need to stay up until 3 am sometimes. But there is also point where you need to accept rest for all of your hard work and understand that it cannot all be done right now. Some things will have to wait, even if it's just a day. I am treading that line right now, not sure what to do with it. But in the verse above it becomes apparent that I need to pray about all my burdens so that God can help find the time to give me rest.

So I am going to write myself a prescription for at least one night away for a few hours of girl time this week, a play date with a friend and a day of rest every Saturday (no work at all).